Showing posts with label Letting Go. Show all posts
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Sunday, 20 September 2015

Creating A Gem Of A Tarot Card For The Autumn Equinox


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This blogpost was written as my contribution to the 2015 Tarot Blog Hop themed to celebrate the Autumn Equinox or Mabon which falls on 22 September, marking the start of the Autumn season.  Our bloghop wrangler, Maureen AislingDuffy-Boose had asked that we pick a card from the Tarot deck that we associated most with the Autumn Equinox and attempt to create our own depiction of that card.


Celebrating Autumn Equinox With The Hanged Man


The Tarot card that I associate the Autumn Equinox with, is the Hanged Man, which is a card that reflects the process of letting go, healing, surrender, taking on different perspectives, change, and taking time out for learning new skills and gathering of new knowledge to lay the foundation stones for renewal.

Autumn as a season is much like the Hanged Man.  It is a time of release and letting go when we see the leaves turning colour from green to brown, and finally dropping off the trees with absolutely no resistance. As Mabon marks the second harvest where people gather and store crops to prepare for the impending winter months, it is also a reflection of a time to gather knowledge and skills to prepare us for what is to come.

  

A Time Of Letting Go


The Hanged Man, and its association with Autumn is particularly meaningful for me at this time,  In more ways than one, this has been a period where I had been giving myself some time and space to manage the letting go of several aspects of my life:


·       This was a period of spiritual renewal where I was forced to confront limiting factors from my past, let go of my ego, and deal with my anger issues caused by my fear of lack of control. Before I struggled with my intuition from time to time, but with this spiritual renewal, my intuition developed further from a space of heart-centredness.


·       This was a period of learning, studying, finding myself and honing my intuitive skills.  As a consequence of that purification process of letting go, I started letting go of my total dependence on my usual metaphysical tools of tarot cards, numerology and astrology as I developed my claircognitive and clairaudience skills.


·       This was a period of dealing with my resistance to the changes in the dynamics of my relationship with my son. This again, has to do with my fear of lack of control. Our relationship went through a roller-coaster of emotions from anger, to disappointment, to sadness simply because it was difficult to deal with his growing up and his preparing to “leave the nest”. I wanted to hold on to every last vestige of him.  Only when I learnt to let go of this fear of lack of control, and allow him to thrive as an independent young man, watch him learn from his own mistakes and explore the world around him without me, that I found peace again with my son.


·       This was a period of changes at my workplace.  Organizational changes always brought about uncertainty, stress and fear.  However when I learnt to let go and change my perspectives that the new environment could be a good opportunity to further push the boundaries of creativity and strategic thought leadership, that I was able to better manage the change and be a better mentor and manager to my team.

  

Designing My Hanged Man Card With Crystal Energy


When I thought about creating my own Hanged Man card for the Autumn Equinox, I felt I was not going to do it justice by copying the usual image of the Hanged Man depicted in most Tarot decks, that is, a figure suspended upside down from a tree. That image etched in the minds of most Tarotists  has already done a wonderful job of teaching us so much because that card is chocked full of meaningful symbolisms. 


From the Morgan Greer Tarot deck by Lloyd Morgan and Bill Greer



I wanted instead to create a card image that had the symbolisms of the Hanged Man card, yet was a reflection of my current journey and the support that I had been given to walk that journey.  So I chose to design my Hanged Man card using a combination of crystal gemstones and photography.

  

Co-creating The Hanged Man Crystal Gemstone Bracelet With Jennifer Toka


I loved working with crystals, and the energy of crystal gemstones are what had been supporting me through this period of change, when I had to manage stress, anxiety, the reluctance to let go, my anger issues and my vulnerabilities. So I got my friend Jennifer Toka, a fellow intuitive and jewelry designer who owned www.healingdragongems.com to design a bracelet for me to reflect this period of change, letting go and renewal that I was going through.  I wanted her to pick the gemstones and design the piece using purely her intuition and my vision.  Part of the brief, was that because Jennifer was also a professional photographer, I wanted her to take a photograph with that jewelry as the subject but composed the image by using purely her intuition, in such a way that would allow the image to depict what the Hanged Man card was all about.  

Take note that Jennifer lives thousands of miles away from me.  She is in America and I am in Singapore.  Yet when we worked on this project together, it was almost like we were speaking to each other in our dreams, telepathically building a piece of jewelry together and linking that jewelry to my past, my present and my future. We co-created the image of the Hanged Man card together using her creativity, our intuitive skills, and our vision.



Designed and photographed by Jennifer Toka, www.healingdragongems.com


Metaphysical Properties Of The Gemstones Within The Hanged Man Bracelet

For the main imagery, the final outcome resulted in a bracelet made up of gemstones that were very much Autumnal in colours and had properties to support me in my process of renewal and letting go:


·       Gold Rutilated Quartz which cleanses, energizes and removes barriers to spiritual growth,

·       Cat’s Eye Quartz to transform negative thoughts, ground and enhance intuition,

·       Garnet for illuminating darkness, lessening anger, build courage,

·       Amber to balance emotions, clear the mind, ease stress and manage fear,

·       Carnelian to give courage to move forward onto a new path

·       Ruby to recharge energy and stimulate creativity

·       Amethyst for healing and calming emotions

·       Moonstone to support intuition and connection with higher self.

·       Smoky quartz for grounding, and removing negative energy



Stringing The Bracelet Together To Symbolize The Hanged Man


Aside from the metaphysical properties of the stones that aided me in my time of change, letting go and renewal, Jennifer was guided to string them all together in such a way where the focal gem of Gold Rutilated Quartz paired with the Garnet actually symbolized the Sun Goddess emerging from an eclipse.  Because Autumn equinox was about the balance of light and day, the Amber in its Autumnal colour was positioned to balance the strength of the Gold Quartz and the Garnet.  She put 4 dark cherry polished Amber stones on each side of the bracelet because the Hanged Man is usually depicted being hung upside down with his legs crossing to make the number 4, the number of building of foundations through  the gathering of knowledge and skills.  Because Autumn and the Hanged Man were symbols of changing perspectives and renewal, the bracelet started with dark coloured Amber at the top and then separated by the green pearl to symbolized change, followed by the brighter gemstones that symbolized renewal.

She then fastened a gold Chinese coin at the end of the bracelet. This coin honors my Chinese heritage, and as a coin, it not only had protective energy but much like the ancient days where coins were buried with the dead to aid them in their passageway across the other world, this Chinese coin symbolized my passageway from my old self, to a renewed self.

When Jennifer held the completed bracelet up, the piece resembled the original Hanged Man imagery where the focal gem of that Gold Rutilated Quartz  resembled the head of the Hanged Man, the Chinese coin resembled his torso, and the gems on each side of the focal point of the bracelet were his arms.






I loved this beautiful piece of jewelry so much that I had dreams of co-creating a piece of jewelry with Jennifer for the rest of the cards in the Tarot deck, and I would have called it the Healing Dragon Gems Tarot Deck!

After putting this bracelet together with the highly symbolic gemstones that reflected the essence of the Autumn Equinox and the Hanged Man card,  Jennifer then put her photography skills to work by composing an image of what we both thought would best depict the Hanged Man card in Tarot using that bracelet.

  

Behold Our Version Of The Hanged Man Card



Photo credit: Jennifer Toka and Strve Murphy
Concept direction:  Joanna Ash





Our version of the Hanged Man card depicts an image of a mother suspending her baby up in the air.  She wanted to play “airplane” with her by tilting her downwards with her arms outspread just like an airplane swooping down the sky.  Her baby clearly felt uncomfortable in that position and was poised to cry.  Just like the Hanged Man, the mother was hoping for her daughter to surrender in trust that Mummy will never allow her to be accidentally dropped from her hands.  In assurance, Mummy held her close, and that was a representation of the Divine help that we get when we faced challenges that required us to step back, recalibrate our thoughts and just Let Go, Let God.

Just as the Hanged Man card was about learning knowledge and garnering skills, Jennifer was teaching her daughter the skill of flexibility, building trust through play, having fun by letting go of fear.

Just as the Hanged Man card was about sacrifice, release and letting go, Jennifer’s relationship with her daughter was a manifestation of the same because of the sacrifices she had to make along the way as a Mother for the love of her daughter.  She would be spending these years, nurturing her daughter, knowing that it would be a relationship of a lot of good times as well as bad times but at the end of it, she would need to let her go as she walks into adulthood. 

Finally, on the mother’s wrist, is the Autumn Equinox bracelet which she had specially made with the gems that reflect the essence and color of Autumn. We also opted to name the card SURRENDER instead of calling it the Hanged Man. Surrender, most aptly defined the Autumn Equinox and everything that the season stood for, knowing that annually, the season brought with it the typical changes of mother nature which served to prepare us for the harsher months of Winter.

I hope you like the Hanged Man card created by Jennifer and I.  If I had the opportunity to develop a full Tarot deck of 78 cards using Jennifer’s intuitive jewelry designing skills and her photography, I definitely would.  Do check out Jennifer’s awesome work at www.healingdragongems.com and if you were to place an order for a piece of jewelry from her, do quote Sun Goddess to get your 15% discount.


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About The Writer:


The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and an intuitive reader by accident who deploys the combined modalities of a Tarot, Numerology and Astrology overlaid with her Clairvoyant and Clairsentient skills to deliver her readings with authenticity. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  As a member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), Joanna governs her practice under the associations’ respective codes of ethics.  She is currently mentoring fellow intuitives on the path of developing their intuitive potential and teaches Tarot and Numerology as well.




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Thursday, 26 June 2014

A Lesson In Letting Go During The New Moon In Cancer



Tomorrow, we celebrate the New Moon in Cancer. It marks a new beginning for me of epic proportions.

The synchronicity of the Universe was just amazing. My friend Martin sent me this photo yesterday that described this New Moon in Cancer so appropriately.  The watery element of the New Moon was like a swelling of emotions from within me.  These emotions had been bubbling just under the surface, waiting to burst through, only to do so when I confronted my past hurts yesterday.   I believed that the Universe had intended to wash me with these waters of my past so that I could come out from the pool cleansed and ready to serve my purpose.  

This New Moon in Cancer was particularly special for me because the Universe devised a wonderful plan to teach me an invaluable lesson about myself. I learnt to let go off aspects of the past that bound me to emotional insecurities, the need to always obtain validation and the fear of the unknown. I was forced to confront such useless energies last night. 

Here was what had happened. 

Caught Up With A Past Filled With Anger And Resentment

Yesterday evening, I parked my car at the building at which I had worked some 7 years ago. I was about to join my husband and my son for a drink to celebrate having crossed mid-week without having to throw a shoe at anyone at the office.   At the lift lobby, I bumped into an ex-boss who had caused me 2 years of immense depression and a lifetime of hypertension issues because I did not agree with his management style. I bristled in anger the minute I saw him and stomped out of the building in tears when memories of all that hurt and disappointment came flooding back in that instant. A tiny voice buzzed menacingly in my head then, attempting to convince me of how bad a marketeer I must have been, or how useless an employee I might have been that caused the rift between him and I.


Grateful For A Present Filled With Abundance

My husband bounded me off into the car to comfort me and promptly turned on the car radio.  When I heard Andrea Boccelli's magical voice, I suddenly remembered the new life I had created after resigning from that job.  Today, I lead a marketing communications team for a company that I truly enjoyed working at everyday. I felt privileged to have bosses and colleagues who inspired me and who accepted and appreciated my skills.  I built  a successful business doing Tarot, Numerology and Astrology readings that allowed me to guide my clients through their issues using my intuitive skills. My family gave me immense love and support. I was on the road towards regaining back my health and fitness. I felt so much abundance.  It was as if, I had finally come home to myself.   


Tapping On My Inner Queen Of Cups

I meditated on the Tarot Card that represented Cancer - the Queen of Cups.  The Queen was emotionally-charged, sometimes she needed to learn to balance heart and head.  She was a dreamer, who had to make special efforts to ensure that she could discern between illusion and reality.  Her highly intuitive nature guided her to navigate difficult situations introspectively.  When I came face to face with past negative energies of anger and resentment, I forced the Queen of Cups in me to  balance my emotions around what was in the now, and what had happened in the past; what energies I deemed as useless so that I could let them go and what lessons I could learn from them; the illusion of my ex-boss' dislike of me and the reality that he did not give a toss what had happened between us then, so many years ago.

I was led by the Universe to put my hand into the bag of seeds of past anger, resentment and sadness. I gave myself permission to be angry for awhile, then sprinkled these seeds of past negative energies onto the ground so that they could be healed by the cleansing earth energy in preparation for my growth.


Planting Seeds Of Joy This New Moon 

If I was not forced to step out of my comfort zone at that point when I could not get along with that ex-boss 7 years ago, I would not have found this life of abundance! When I started to think back about what I had learnt when I was caught in the middle of that career cross-road, I realized those lessons were well-leveraged when I guided my clients who went through similar situations.  I became a better manager, a better friend, a better mentor, a better wife, and a better mum because of what I had been through.  My experience taught me that only I could plant my own seeds of joy, success, fulfillment and abundance.  

I felt immense gratitude for that experience with my ex-boss. I could finally let it all go. And I let it go with love.  

So this New Moon in Cancer was a lesson for me in letting go of what was holding me down and not serving me anymore so that I could birth new strength and courage to create a better life, gain new knowledge and perspectives, and serve my purpose that was meant to be.  



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About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and an intuitive reader by accident who deploys the combined modalities of a Tarot, Numerology and Astrology overlaid with her Clairvoyant and Clairsentient skills to deliver her readings with authenticity. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association

Website: www.sungoddesstarot.com
Email:  Joanna@sungoddesstarot.com
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Queen Of Cups From The Rosetta Tarot Deck By M.M. Meleen

Photo Credit: Martin Hook

Monday, 26 May 2014

Clear Cancel And Delete

Have you had the experience when you had just completed writing a long report for your boss filled with well-thought through plans and recommendations, or wrote a beautiful blog post charged with powerful heart-felt emotional energy, or wrote a long complaint letter to the authorities about what you would like to see improved within the community, then reviewed what you had written with the intention of sending the document through, only to go back to the paper to clear, cancel and delete, and start writing all over again?

That was what I did with the help of one of my intuitive coaches, Danielle Dove.  I did it with past energies that no longer served me.



I Shared The Same Issues With My Clients

Over the years, the intuitive readings that I had done for my clients were focused on uncovering the root cause of their present issues and helping them let go of past energies that had significant impact on these issues. I was always filled with a mega sense of gratitude that the Universe had guided them my way so that I could serve my purpose when I worked with these clients.

However,   I forgot that from time to time, even though we deployed every ounce of our positive energies to  help others as lightworkers, we might have our own residual negative energies from the past that we might need to take care of.  And that can only happen if and when we were made aware of it by someone slightly further removed from our day-to-day lives enough to lend an objective view to our issues.

I was filled with a mega sense of gratitude when the Universe blew Danielle my way, to do the same.  She managed to help me uncover the root cause of my present issues, my blockages, fears and anxieties.   I believed that when I managed to identify the root cause of these issues with her help, confront them with a measure of love and compassion,  and then let them go with all the courage that I could muster, it made me a better lightworker.  I saw myself in my clients with that extra dose of empathy so that  I could better walk that journey along with them.


How My Past Energies Affected The Present

You see, I spent years helping others, and was oblivious to the signs of my own issues.  I enjoyed channeling for others.  It felt great when I could obtain the visions and the messages to help them.  When it came to channeling for myself though, I was left with a complete blank in my mind’s eye.  It frustrated me greatly when I felt that I could not connect clearly with my guides for myself.

Sometimes, I went through mood swings and blamed it on the fact that as a psychic empath, I was picking up on the energies of others around me.  On good days, my readings for my clients were so easy.  On days when I went into these odd mood swings, these reading sessions seemed to look like a 8th grade concert performance.  I would be hit with the anxiety to “perform” in front of my clients.   I knew I needed help, but I was not sure how or what help I needed so Danielle came to the rescue.

She took me through a very emotionally-draining but much -needed exercise of going back to when I last felt angriest, saddest, anxious and lost.  Then we went in deeper to look at myself  then in that situation, through the eyes of my present self.  I had to  confront the situation, acknowledged how I felt then, embraced it with love and compassion and then I had to willingly let it all go.
After that exercise, I woke up to several facts that I did not realize were affecting me:

  • My past issues with my Mum after my divorce, though resolved on a physical plane, had actually left a residual sense of rejection within me.  I was not aware of it because my current relationship with Mum is fabulous and we are very close.  However, every time I came face to face with a challenge, a blockage or a delay in my work or personal life, I viewed it as a rejection of me.

  • That sense of rejection from that past incident, dictated how I conducted my relationship with my son presently.  So the anger, sadness and sense of rejection surfaced whenever my son did or said something that reminded me of how it felt like to be rejected.  Even something as simple as taking his dinner into his bedroom and shutting his door behind him, so that he could have his dinner in privacy and in front of his computer games, filled me with a sense of his rejecting for not wanting to have dinner with me.

  • Similarly, when I meditated and attempted to get into the zone enough to connect with my guides, I kept getting fuzzy images, sometimes nothing at all, or when I did meet my guides, I felt as if I was being questioned, “What are you doing here?”  I viewed these blockages as a rejection from my guides.

  • When I met a difficult client who was close-minded and skeptical about my intuitive abilities, I would usually do more grounding to protect myself from his or her energy.  However, the session might end up with my being left with a bitter taste in my mouth because I felt as if I was being rejected by the client.

I feared rejection.  My fear of rejection, if left unchecked could have been the biggest obstacle to my ability to serve my purpose with 100% commitment.


Opening Myself To Change And Letting Go


I often tell my clients, “Be open to change and let go of whatever that no longer serves you.”  With Danielle’s help, today I am able to tell myself that.  When I visited Mom over the weekend, my heart rushed out to embrace her with love.  I was more conscious of every effort she put into cooking my lunch, and twirling my hair into a little chignon so that stray strands of my long hair would not get in the way of my food.  I celebrated her laughter at my jokes as if she was the only member of my audience.  I was so grateful for the affection she showered on me when she turned my upturned t-shirt label at the nape of my neck inward and patted it back in place.  

When Joel was busy with his homework, I hugged him and told him how much I loved him. I held him close at church during mass as if to say how much I appreciated him being there.  

When I channeled my guides last night, I saw so clearly their faces in my mind’s eye.  I saw the glow around their features, even to the detail of the glasses on one of my guides.  I rejoiced and whispered my gratitude for their patience with me.     


Last week, when I spoke to Danielle, she had asked me this question, “On the scale of 1-10, 10 representing the deepest feeling of rejection, how did you feel when you visited that place in the past when you felt rejected by your family?”  My answer was a firm 8.   Today, I asked myself the same question and my answer is a firm 0. 


I have successfully cleared, cancelled and deleted what no longer served me and was committed to leaving behind that old Jo who had spent years fearing rejection, so that I could look forward to building a better relationship with my guides, and serving my soul purpose better.


10 of Swords


This evening, I picked up the 10 of Swords from my Radiant Rider Waite Tarot deck and meditated on it.  I was so glad that my eyes went straight for the rising sun beyond the horizon, and took in the calmness of the clear blue sea within the card image.  The card seemed to assure me that the darkness would soon be dispelled, once I had stopped focusing on the 10 swords left stuck behind the man’s back.  However, like the exercise Danielle did with me earlier, I acknowledged the presence of the 10 swords and embraced them with love and gratitude for the lessons they taught me.  I imagined myself lying there with these swords in my back and began to pull them out one by one: 

  1. My divorce 15 years ago after an unhappy marriage,
  2. The friends who took sides against me after the divorce,
  3. My family’s rejection of me because divorce was “uncatholic”,
  4. My inability to spend more time with a sickly granddad because the family did not welcome me into their home,
  5. My struggles as a single mother,
  6. Years of financial uncertainty,
  7. Years of emotional instability, moving from home to home, bad boyfriends to worse boyfriends,
  8. Discovering the infidelities of my fiancé,
  9. The incessant fights with an ex-boss who did not respect me or my work
  10. The skepticism of my friends and some clients in my intuitive gifts when I first set up my consultancy Sun Goddess Tarot

The swords came out clean, and I visualized clean, green earth energy healing the wounds the swords had left behind my back.  I was able to get on my feet, and walk towards the sunshine in the horizon without the weight of these burdens on my back.

I believed that my guides were always there with me but they were just waiting for me to be ready to approach them from a space of love.  I saw them clearly for the first time last night when I channeled and acknowledged their glowing presence with my prayers of gratitude. 

 I am now ready to work closely with my guides to get my clients through their past issues.  So are you ready and willing to let go of your past that no longer serve you positively?



About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade and an intuitive reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology overlaid with her Clairvoyant and Clairsentient skills via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association.

Website: www.sungoddesstarot.com
Email:  Joanna@sungoddesstarot.com
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10 of Swords from the Radiant Rider Waite Tarot deck updated by Virginijus Poshkus