Clear Cancel And Delete

Have you had the experience when you had just completed writing a long report for your boss filled with well-thought through plans and recommendations, or wrote a beautiful blog post charged with powerful heart-felt emotional energy, or wrote a long complaint letter to the authorities about what you would like to see improved within the community, then reviewed what you had written with the intention of sending the document through, only to go back to the paper to clear, cancel and delete, and start writing all over again?

That was what I did with the help of one of my intuitive coaches, Danielle Dove.  I did it with past energies that no longer served me.



I Shared The Same Issues With My Clients

Over the years, the intuitive readings that I had done for my clients were focused on uncovering the root cause of their present issues and helping them let go of past energies that had significant impact on these issues. I was always filled with a mega sense of gratitude that the Universe had guided them my way so that I could serve my purpose when I worked with these clients.

However,   I forgot that from time to time, even though we deployed every ounce of our positive energies to  help others as lightworkers, we might have our own residual negative energies from the past that we might need to take care of.  And that can only happen if and when we were made aware of it by someone slightly further removed from our day-to-day lives enough to lend an objective view to our issues.

I was filled with a mega sense of gratitude when the Universe blew Danielle my way, to do the same.  She managed to help me uncover the root cause of my present issues, my blockages, fears and anxieties.   I believed that when I managed to identify the root cause of these issues with her help, confront them with a measure of love and compassion,  and then let them go with all the courage that I could muster, it made me a better lightworker.  I saw myself in my clients with that extra dose of empathy so that  I could better walk that journey along with them.


How My Past Energies Affected The Present

You see, I spent years helping others, and was oblivious to the signs of my own issues.  I enjoyed channeling for others.  It felt great when I could obtain the visions and the messages to help them.  When it came to channeling for myself though, I was left with a complete blank in my mind’s eye.  It frustrated me greatly when I felt that I could not connect clearly with my guides for myself.

Sometimes, I went through mood swings and blamed it on the fact that as a psychic empath, I was picking up on the energies of others around me.  On good days, my readings for my clients were so easy.  On days when I went into these odd mood swings, these reading sessions seemed to look like a 8^th grade concert performance.  I would be hit with the anxiety to “perform” in front of my clients.   I knew I needed help, but I was not sure how or what help I needed so Danielle came to the rescue.

She took me through a very emotionally-draining but much -needed exercise of going back to when I last felt angriest, saddest, anxious and lost.  Then we went in deeper to look at myself  then in that situation, through the eyes of my present self.  I had to  confront the situation, acknowledged how I felt then, embraced it with love and compassion and then I had to willingly let it all go.
After that exercise, I woke up to several facts that I did not realize were affecting me:

• My past issues with my Mum after my divorce, though resolved on a physical plane, had actually left a residual sense of rejection within me.  I was not aware of it because my current relationship with Mum is fabulous and we are very close.  However, every time I came face to face with a challenge, a blockage or a delay in my work or personal life, I viewed it as a rejection of me.

• That sense of rejection from that past incident, dictated how I conducted my relationship with my son presently.  So the anger, sadness and sense of rejection surfaced whenever my son did or said something that reminded me of how it felt like to be rejected.  Even something as simple as taking his dinner into his bedroom and shutting his door behind him, so that he could have his dinner in privacy and in front of his computer games, filled me with a sense of his rejecting for not wanting to have dinner with me.

• Similarly, when I meditated and attempted to get into the zone enough to connect with my guides, I kept getting fuzzy images, sometimes nothing at all, or when I did meet my guides, I felt as if I was being questioned, “What are you doing here?”  I viewed these blockages as a rejection from my guides.

• When I met a difficult client who was close-minded and skeptical about my intuitive abilities, I would usually do more grounding to protect myself from his or her energy.  However, the session might end up with my being left with a bitter taste in my mouth because I felt as if I was being rejected by the client.

I feared rejection.  My fear of rejection, if left unchecked could have been the biggest obstacle to my ability to serve my purpose with 100% commitment.


Opening Myself To Change And Letting Go


I often tell my clients, “Be open to change and let go of whatever that no longer serves you.”  With Danielle’s help, today I am able to tell myself that.  When I visited Mom over the weekend, my heart rushed out to embrace her with love.  I was more conscious of every effort she put into cooking my lunch, and twirling my hair into a little chignon so that stray strands of my long hair would not get in the way of my food.  I celebrated her laughter at my jokes as if she was the only member of my audience.  I was so grateful for the affection she showered on me when she turned my upturned t-shirt label at the nape of my neck inward and patted it back in place.  

When Joel was busy with his homework, I hugged him and told him how much I loved him. I held him close at church during mass as if to say how much I appreciated him being there.  

When I channeled my guides last night, I saw so clearly their faces in my mind’s eye.  I saw the glow around their features, even to the detail of the glasses on one of my guides.  I rejoiced and whispered my gratitude for their patience with me.     


Last week, when I spoke to Danielle, she had asked me this question, “On the scale of 1-10, 10 representing the deepest feeling of rejection, how did you feel when you visited that place in the past when you felt rejected by your family?”  My answer was a firm 8.   Today, I asked myself the same question and my answer is a firm 0. 


I have successfully cleared, cancelled and deleted what no longer served me and was committed to leaving behind that old Jo who had spent years fearing rejection, so that I could look forward to building a better relationship with my guides, and serving my soul purpose better.


10 of Swords


This evening, I picked up the 10 of Swords from my Radiant Rider Waite Tarot deck and meditated on it.  I was so glad that my eyes went straight for the rising sun beyond the horizon, and took in the calmness of the clear blue sea within the card image.  The card seemed to assure me that the darkness would soon be dispelled, once I had stopped focusing on the 10 swords left stuck behind the man’s back.  However, like the exercise Danielle did with me earlier, I acknowledged the presence of the 10 swords and embraced them with love and gratitude for the lessons they taught me.  I imagined myself lying there with these swords in my back and began to pull them out one by one: 

1. My divorce 15 years ago after an unhappy marriage,
2. The friends who took sides against me after the divorce,
3. My family’s rejection of me because divorce was “uncatholic”,
4. My inability to spend more time with a sickly granddad because the family did not welcome me into their home,
5. My struggles as a single mother,
6. Years of financial uncertainty,
7. Years of emotional instability, moving from home to home, bad boyfriends to worse boyfriends,
8. Discovering the infidelities of my fiancé,
9. The incessant fights with an ex-boss who did not respect me or my work
10. The skepticism of my friends and some clients in my intuitive gifts when I first set up my consultancy Sun Goddess Tarot

The swords came out clean, and I visualized clean, green earth energy healing the wounds the swords had left behind my back.  I was able to get on my feet, and walk towards the sunshine in the horizon without the weight of these burdens on my back.

I believed that my guides were always there with me but they were just waiting for me to be ready to approach them from a space of love.  I saw them clearly for the first time last night when I channeled and acknowledged their glowing presence with my prayers of gratitude. 

 I am now ready to work closely with my guides to get my clients through their past issues.  So are you ready and willing to let go of your past that no longer serve you positively?

About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade and an intuitive reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology overlaid with her Clairvoyant and Clairsentient skills via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association.

Website: www.sungoddesstarot.com
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10 of Swords from the Radiant Rider Waite Tarot deck updated by Virginijus Poshkus

I Do What I Do Best Because I Am Who I Am

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be?”  ~ Marianne Williamson, Return to Love 

Discovering A Common Pattern In My Readings

I often swap tips and stories with fellow intuitives and felt so inadequate that they seemed to be able to connect with their guides so clearly, but it was much harder for me as I might lose my focus due to other images coming into my mind.  So, I started analyzing all the readings I had done in the last few months using a combination of channeling and my Tarot cards.  There seemed to be a common technique I noticed that I had used in the readings, starting each reading by connecting with my clients' chakras, going into visioning, automatic writing and then Tarot cards for validation.  There was also a common theme to these readings.  I noticed that within all of them. I had connected to past energies very strongly and these past energies had a significant impact in my clients' present circumstances and potentially future outcomes.  An example of a reading like this can be found here.

Working With Past Energies To Support Healing Work

One of my intuitive coaches, Karina Ladet, comforted me during my moments of self-doubt by reminding me that each intuitive reader was different in their skills, abilities and techniques and she felt that one of my gifts was to help clients with their present issues by uncovering past issues that they had to release.  So she wanted me to acknowledge that gift, nurture and hone it to sharpen these skills.  

First Channeling Session For Marianne

I had the opportunity to do so with a client Marianne.  Please note that I have changed her name in this blog post to protect her privacy. I worked on her healing process for some weeks. When I started channeling for Marianne, I was not given any background to any issues she might have had then. After I got into deep meditation to ground myself, I ran my hands around my chakra points to connect with hers, and found her throat chakra so tight that it was choking me.  It was as if she was trying to express herself but could not do so.  Her crown and third eye chakras were brilliant that  I was able to connect with the white light just above these chakras.  Of course they were, she was a fellow intuitive and I knew these chakras were opened and she was, on her own, also trying to connect with her higher self.   That was when 2 people appeared in my vision holding on to a door as if to open it, but I also saw a child clinging onto her right thigh, as if she was demanding for attention.  At that point, my heart and solar plexus tightened and I felt a cord attached to both these chakras, causing a lot of anxiety and fears. 

Nothing Is Ever What It Seems

As I had seen a child in my vision, I asked Marianne if she had lost a child before and she admitted that she had suffered a miscarriage.  I then deduced straight away that the cord of anxiety was caused by her experience of that miscarriage and her worries about whether she could have more babies in the future.  I wished I had remembered then that an ex-boss and friend once told me, "nothing is ever what it seems." 

Then as I continued my visioning work, I saw a hill and I kept gasping for air. As a psychic empath, I thought that I was assuming Marianne's anxieties and her efforts to cope with her grief.  So I told her, " I think I see a hill and perhaps you need to go sit there for awhile to meditate and release your anxiety and grief."  She nodded in agreement to that advice and I then proceeded to visualize myself helping her to cut the cords from her solar plexus and heart chakras.  I was also guided by my messages that I had to do a grounding meditation, draw up the healing energy from the earth in my visualization and then sent Marianne that healing light.  

Marianne left that session happy and we both felt that we had  addressed her issues.  Nothing is ever what it seems.

Second Channeling Session For Marianne

2 weeks later, she called on me again.  She was clearly in despair and she said, " I feel I am not to able to manifest abundance.  I feel a lot of anxieties about not being able to have another child.  Maybe it is because I don't deserve it."  I chided her for such negative thinking but it struck me that this depression, was not a new problem.  She had been there before numerous times and her negativity seemed to be haunting her again due to an unresolved issue.  So I decided to channel for her again.  This time, I ventured to go back a little further, and go in a little deeper.

During my  second  channeling session with Marianne, I saw a few images and proceeded to write them down. The first image was that of a child lying on the floor holding on to her long skirt as if she was throwing a tantrum.  It was as if the child was reacting to not getting what she wanted from her parent.  However, while in the last channeling session, I had seen the child from a 3rd person's viewpoint, now, I seem to be seeing the adult from the child's viewpoint.  It occurred to me suddenly that I was looking at the adult from Marianne's eyes. The child was actually Marianne!   Wow!   The second image was that of the child's face welded  into Marianne's heart like it was branded onto her chest.  My heart and solar plexus chakras tightened again, reflecting Marianne's own fears and anxieties.  She was clinging on to a burden of pain, fear and anxiety in her heart.  I thought I had cut those cords!  The third image was of Marianne lying down and resting, as if she was recuperating from a battle.  The fourth image was of a  lady who turned her back away from me to walk into the light.  I interpreted it as a message telling her to surrender to the light of the Universe.  I felt a burning in my throat chakra at that point and it was telling me there were things she wanted to express but she could not.  My right neck and right back of head hurt too, as if she was carrying a past burden of disappointment or guilt.   

Right On The Button

The lightbulb in my head just went off.  I realized that after 2 channeling sessions, the real issue Marianne was suffering from was her clinging to past disappointments or guilt that had occurred during her childhood.  This was a recurring issue that haunted her and because he had not sought closure, she could not let go of the past, and consequently, she was not able to be healed. 

With that conclusion, I then proceeded to draw my Tarot cards to validate my findings.  I picked the 6 of Swords, 7 of Swords, the 6 of Cups reversed and the Sun reversed.  The cards validated my interpretation of the messages I got from these visions.  I saw a story unfolding in my head, like a video playing a home movie. Marianne was clinging on to a past disappointment when the family went through a divorce and her father left her mother and her due to his infidelities.  As a child, Marianne felt so much guilt about not being able to do anything to help the situation and worse, her mother had to struggle through that single motherhood to try to bring little Marianne up on her own.  As she was unable to cope with providing for Marianne, the little girl was sent to a government-funded childcare facility.  Marianne suffered depression as a result.  That child in my vision in both channeling sessions, really was Marianne trying to deal with her past of growing up in a broken home. 

The Healing For Marianne

With this insight, I advised Marianne to do a healing meditation together with me.  On my part, I went deep into meditation and visualised myself cutting the final cords to her "inner child".  On her part, she went deep into meditation where she sat with her "inner child" for a while to acknowledge its presence, and all the feelings of hurt and disappointment.  In her visualisation process, she embraced her "inner child", and offered it love and healing.  She visualised herself going through a photo album with her "inner child".  That photo album was filled with pages of her childhood photos.  Then after embracing her "inner child" and letting the past hurts dissipate in both their tears, she saw her "inner child" walk away and disappearing across a hill.  I remembered that in the first channeling session, I saw that hill.  Now I realised what that hill had symbolised.

The Healing For Me

This reading for Marianne, was a tremendous eye opener that affirmed Karina's very wise advice that I should focus on honing my skills in working on past energies to support my clients' journeys  through their respective healing process.  

I often questioned my intuitive abilities, and turned the messages and visions  I got in my mind's eye around for umpteen times, then ended up not communicating these messages and visions at all out of fear that I might be wrong.   However, Karina's advice had gotten me to approach Marianne's reading from a different perspective.  This had helped uncovered the root cause of the issue and opened the right door for us to work on her healing process. 

A big takeaway for me from Karina's advice and my reading for Marianne, was the need to have the courage to love myself and trust in my intuitive gifts without the need for validation. Thanks to these ladies, I was reminded that I do what I do best because I am who I am. 

"A Woman in harmony with her spirit is like a river flowing.  She goes where she will without pretense and arrives at her destination prepared to be herself and only herself."  ~  Maya Angelou 

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About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade and an intuitive reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology overlaid with her Clairvoyant and Clairsentient skills via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association.

Website: www.sungoddesstarot.com
Email:  Joanna@sungoddesstarot.com
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Photo Credit:  Joel Lee, East Coast Beach, Singapore

Reconnecting With Myself In Sri Lanka

My vacation in Sri Lanka meant to be just that, a vacation. I was prepared for a glorious week to do absolutely nothing and use that time to recharge my batteries.  I did enjoy it as purely a travel destination but I enjoyed it more as my intuitive guide when it helped me reconnect with my higher self through every magical moment that had touched me there.

In the last couple of years, I made it a point to turn each of my vacations into a little journey deeper into myself.  Each trip was designed to take care of my body, mind and spirit.   I spent a week in Bali, where I plunged deeply into yoga practice and meditation.  I spent a week in a Chiang Mai doing the same and discovered the wonders of vegetarianism.  I spent a week in Sri Lanka going even deeper into my meditation practice, adhering to my vegetarian diet even more strictly and this time, I flexed my intuitive muscles even more and practiced channeling even before I sat foot on this beautiful island.

My Visions Tell A Story

Before I made my trip to Sri Lanka, I had decided not to do any form of research about the island.  Also, while I knew I was going to be staying in Templeberg Plantation which was a 1860s Dutch colonial villa set within a coconut plantation, I did not want to find out much more about it.  While in the plane just before touching down at the airport, I decided to meditate and got into the zone to tune into what I was about to experience at this island.  I had 4  images that came into my vision.  One was of a priest/monk/friar.  He was wearing a dark robe with a cross necklace around his neck.  Another image was of a Western/European man in what looked like an expensive suit with coat tails. He had brown hair and a short beard or goatee The third image was of two boys. They had page boy hairstyles and they were curious but shy. Even when I asked them to step forward, they hid away.  The fourth image was of a dark haired woman in a long high collared gown.  She looked gentle and kind but I suddenly had a wave of feelings of being bored, trapped, unhappy and homesick. I knew I was assuming her feelings but did not know who she was.  I took out my Tarot cards and picked one to validate my feelings.  I picked the 8 of swords which was an affirmation that the lady had at some point felt trapped and lonely here. I believed she missed her home and wanted so much to go home but she could not because her family had made a life here in Sri Lanka.  She did not seem to enjoy the environment and stayed cooped in the house.  Perhaps what did not agree with her was the difference in climate, environment, lack of friends and family.

I was quite interested in the lady because I sensed she was equally as interested in me.  I saw her in my visions again when I arrived at Templeberg Plantation and speculated that perhaps she had at some point owned the villa.  She might also be the wife of this brown-haired officious looking bloke.  They looked like they were English but I thought the villa used to be owned by the Dutch.  I made a mental note to ask the current  villa owners about it.  David said that Westerners in the colonial period seemed to wear similar outfits that made it difficult to tell for sure if they were Dutch, English or from other parts of Europe.

Now, the monk/priest/friar character was another interesting image because David found out only today that the Franciscan Friars came to Sri Lanka together with the Portuguese in their mission to spread Christianity.  How interesting!  It felt like I was learning a bit of history through my channeling practice.

I felt also truly grateful to Sri Lanka for giving me much time, space and opportunity to learn that my claircognitive abilities were not just meant to know, see and understand a situation but it was also meant to heal.

Saving Rewa

When Rewa the villa owner's dog got trapped in a wire snare meant to trap porcupines in the jungle, she went into a state of panic and was trying to hide from us.  This could potentially endanger her further.  The longer the wire stayed entwined around her neck, the higher the risk of her being strangled by it.  I had channeled for animals a long time ago and decided to do it again here.  I held Rewa's head in place within my hands, and tuned into my spirit guides to tell Rewa to give me just 15minutes of her time so that I could free her.  All I needed was 15 minutes and that was a promise. 

Rewa looked calmer after that.  She allowed David to tug at the wire with the pliers and wire cutter even though it hurt her.  She stayed still, very calm and did not move an inch.  This was rare and out of natural behavior for a dog which would otherwise attempt to struggle, run away or bite David's hand.  However, I knew after my channeling that Rewa would give me her 15minutes.  We managed to free her within 10 minutes.  She then spent the entire afternoon by our side as if to thank us for our efforts.  I felt I should thank her instead for trusting us with all her heart.  When an animal places its entire trust in human hands, it could only be described a bliss.

Healing Mr Tea Plantation Guide

The next day, I visited the Hundungoda Virgin White Tea Plantation.  We had a lovely guide who walked us around the plantation and explained about the flora and fauna within the plantation, over and on top describing how tea leaves were plucked and prepared.  Midway through that little tour, he asked what I did back home in Singapore.  When I explained that I was an intuitive reader, he thrusted his palm out at me and asked if he could "live long time".  I promptly held his hand, closed my eyes for awhile to feel his energy and told him that I did not read palms, but I could feel his unhappiness at working in the plantation.  I felt he was ungrounded as I felt a cord of negativity pulling at my root chakra.  I could feel my heart and solar plexus chakras tightening in anxiety.  Although he obviously asked what I considered was a health question "could I live long time?", his issues were definitely not health related but had to do with a cord tied to his family or family member.  When I probed him about this, he admitted he had issues with his wife who lived in Colombo. However when he retired, he had decided to come to Galle to work as the plantation needed an English-speaking guide. The distance perhaps took a toll on him.  However, I saw something else within my vision. I saw a an image of the guide and his wife in the act of serving or selling things. They looked like drapery but I could not be sure. So I told him that if he decided to stop working at the plantation, he might want to consider opening a small business with his wife. This will make both of them happy and more fulfilled and in his words, "live long time" through his retirement.  When I went back to the villa, I decided to pick a Tarot card while thinking of Mr Tea Plantation Guide.  I picked the Page of Pentacles and the 9 of Cups which validated my reading for him.  He will find his fulfillment and he will find much prosperity in doing a business that he can start afresh and learn something new from.  He is after all in his retirement years.  A new lease of life, and a new journey awaits him and his wife. I have no doubt he could "live long time."

Taking Care Of Me

I really enjoyed my time in Sri Lanka.  Not only did I get to see the sights, understand the history and culture of his beautiful island and make new friends, both past and present, at the Templeberg Plantation, I also took some time out to practice my channeling.

And how wonderful my spirit guides and angels were.  As I was busy trying to flex my intuitive muscles, I was pinged on Facebook by a message from my fellow intuitive friend Susan Marie.  She wanted to find out how I was keeping.  I begun to tell her about my trip and how I sometimes had good days and sometimes bad days when I was practicing channeling.  Midway through that discussion, I realized that Susan Marie had contacted me out of the blue for a reason.  She was guided to remind me that it was okay to have good days and bad days as I practised channeling.  More importantly, I had to remember that I was on vacation, and I had to learn to take care of me.  This meant that I needed to learn to close my crown and third eye chakras for a bit from time to time and just keep my heart chakra opened to experiencing the magical sights and sounds of Sri Lanka.  Thanks Susan Marie for that reminder.  I have 2 days left to my vacation so I might just sit in the garden with the villa dogs to read and relax.

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The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and a tarot card reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a Tarot consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association

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Mr Tea Plantation Guide Showing Off A White Tea Leaf Bud

Rewa Sitting Next To Me In David's Favourite Chair As If Thanking Us For Saving Her Life

Found This Beautiful Flower At The Tea Plantation.
It Is An Exact Image of The Lotus
I See Within My Crown And Third Eye Chakras
When I Am Doing Any Work Using My Upper Chakras

Grateful For The Opportunity To Give And To Recieve

Andrea's Blog Challenge

Every first Monday of the month, my friend Andrea Hiltbrunner throws a Blog Challenge where bloggers around the world will blog about a given topic and then link the blogposts together into one big themed blog party.  This month's topic is on Opportunity. 

Opportunity

If you have been following my journey as I embraced my spiritual path, accepted and developed my intuitive gifts and acknowledged my purpose, you would be able to sense the abundance that I felt and so happily talked about every chance I got,  Andrea's topic for this month's blog challenge was yet another chance for me to express my gratitude for every opportunity I got  to make a difference in someone else's life when I gave an intuitive reading using my tarot, numerology, astrology and clairvoyant skills.   Yes, I was grateful for the trust my clients had in me but I realized that within each reading, I had learnt something new about an insight or about myself.  

Gratitude

Each reading was in itself a spiritual coach guiding me to trust my intuition even more.  That was in fact, how I slowly discovered my clairvoyant and clairsentient skills.  Beyond the reading, I had chanced upon so many intuitives like myself who were unaware of their intuitive skills or who have not had the opportunity to develop these skills due to self doubts, lack of guidance or familial objections. In the last few weeks, I had taken to mentoring and supporting  fellow intuitives like myself, beyond the usual tarot and numerology mentoring that I had been doing for my proteges.   They were fellow intuitives who were also in the throes of developing their clairvoyant and clairsentient skills and had fallen into periods of self-doubt, despair, fear and anxiety.  I was all to familiar with that because I spent the last few months feeling the same.  

However, I  had been very lucky.  When I discovered I had skills beyond my basic comprehension of what was considered rational,  I had engaged an intuitive coach to help me through my learning process.  Some of these intuitives with whom I had worked with, on the other hand, have not had the opportunity to do the same for some reason or other.  

So I whispered a word of thanks to the Universe for planting the synchronicity that I had been experiencing along my journey and surrounding me with help either in the form of:

1) An understanding family who gave me space to develop my gifts, 
2) Very open-minded bosses and colleagues at work who saw my gifts as a touch of quirky colour added to the work team, 
3) True friends who accepted my gifts and inquisitively explored them by volunteering as "guinea pigs",  
4) My clients and proteges who unquestionably trusted every advice I gave and loved me for what I did, 
5) My intuitive coaches who very patiently dealt with my self-doubts and impatience, and 
6) My fellow intuitive friends within the spiritual community who had been my extended guides and teachers in tarot, numerology, astrology and clairvoyance. 

My List Of Happy Soul Moments

If I am currently a-washed with a feeling of abundance, it is because I am surrounded with it.  Everywhere I looked, I found opportunities to make a difference in someone else's life.  As I did so, I had also been given opportunities to receive the same from so many.  When I wrote about synchronicity, I saw one of my intuitive coaches, Danielle Dove had posted a question on her Facebook page which asked, " What is on your list of Happy Soul Moments?" Inspired by her, I wrote my list down and have attached it to this blogpost.

I credit my friend Andrea for coming up with this timely topic, Opportunity, for this month's blog challenge and do encourage you to read her blogpost on the same topic here.

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About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and a tarot card reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a Tarot consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association

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Email:  Joanna@sungoddesstarot.com
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Trust In The Message Behind Every Vision

I used to struggle with my visions as I developed my clairvoyant and clairsentient skills.  You see, I was brought up to assess a situation and provide a solution through a rational decisioning process.  Embracing the "alien" concept of  allowing my intuition to lead the way took a lot of time, persistence and patience.  However, I am so glad that I am not treading this journey alone. I found a safe space within which I could slowly open up to surrendering to my higher self and trusting  my intuition.

When I was guided by my intuition to look further into a situation beyond the actual questions that my clients had approached me with, I knew it would be the Universe’s way of telling me that I could do a lot more to help the client, and there were more messages that I was compelled to provide.

Last week, my client Ava, who lived in Frankfurt,  approached me for advice on an issue regarding whether or not to sell her home so that she could relocate to France, to work and live. It seemed to be a straight forward reading at first glance but when I started channeling for her, I was in for a surprise. 

So let me explain the process I took to do her reading.  

Piecing A Story Together Through Channeling

First I went into meditation to clear my mind and ground myself.  Then I channeled Ava and ran my hands across my chakra points to find where her blockages were. My crown and third eye chakras were buzzing which indicated to me that Ava’s crown and third eye chakras could be opened and she might be more intuitive than she was aware of or she had let on.  My heart chakra was burning and I felt a cord of negativity there which indicated to me that Ava might have had suffered an emotional trauma, heartbreak or disappointment.  She had been clinging to it for awhile.  I made a mental note to ask her for permission later to cut that cord once I did more channeling to find out the underlying cause for the presence of that cord.  So that was when I was overwhelmed by a huge wave of depression, sadness and claustrophobia.  It was almost choking me.  I knew then that it was a negative energy surrounding Ava that I was dealing with then.  The message I got then, was to look into that house and whomever lives or had lived in there.

 I then went into a process of "visioning".  As I had visions forming in my mind's eye, I wrote down everything I saw.  Every minute that I had spent writing out the words, I felt my heart weighed increasingly heavier with despair and anger.  I knew, as a psychic empath, that they were not mine but that belonging to the energy or Ava herself.  These are what I wrote:   1) Someone leaving through a door, some luggage was next to him. The man had a hat and an old fashioned leather luggage, much like one dressed in the 50s maybe? Or 60s? 2) A man in between 2 women.  There was a 3rd party conflict or a love affair? 3) Mental anguish over 2 people or dual personality?  A decision or choice must be made. 4) A dark room with a small window.  It looks like a room, hospital room or a room like in a prison cell?  5) I feel a lot of fear, anxiety, and depression. 6) A tall building that looks like a clock tower nearby., 7) A train? It looks like an old steam train.  My visions stopped at these but I believed these visions had to do with a previous occupier of the home, someone related to Ava, who was either parents or relatives of Ava.  

Ava confirmed that these visions were associated with her mother who had committed suicide many years ago in that home she now lives in.  Ava's mother had never forgiven her husband for an affair he had.  He fell in love with an English lady whom he had met during one of his travels. Ava's parents had big fights over the issue which affected a very young Ava then.  Her father finally left  home to live in England with his new love and never saw Ava or her mother again.  This explained my vision of the man with the luggage leaving through a door as well as another vision of the clock tower which I realized was actually the Big Ben. The  years of loneliness and resentment that Ava's mother had experienced after, took a toll on her mental well-being that she often called her home a "prison".  This explained my vision of the small room that looked like a prison cell.  Ava felt that her mother had suffered imprisonment within her own mind.   

I believed that this incident in the past, had imprisoned Ava from her bid to find a direction in her life where she could start afresh.  She was still living in that home, she had anxiety issues herself, she had just come out of a messy divorce and she was unclear what her goals were when I asked.

Connecting The Story With The Querant Through Numerology 

The next thing I did was to do a numerological assessment for her to help me piece that connection between her experience in the past and it's impact on her life now.

Ava had  a hidden emotional number 4.  This indicated that she was quite repressive.  She kept her true feelings within herself although she was highly sensitive.  She also disliked any kind of emotional situations that could potentially cause her a lot of stress and discomfort.  She was quite practical though and would mask her true feelings just to get things done.  This explained why Ava had never shared this background of her past with me, but instead wanted to soldier through her feelings of guilt to sell her home so that she could move on. Yet, she felt undecided if that was the right thing to do.

She had a hidden physical number 2.  She could be  very sensitive, and might suffer from lack of confidence.  She was very vulnerable and self conscious, and had the potential to suffer anxiety and depression. This connected very much to the cord of negativity that I had felt in her heart.

Ava had a hidden intuitive number  2.  This explained why her crown and third eye chakras were buzzing.  She was highly intuitive and extremely sensitive.  She had a tendency to direct her thoughts to spiritual and metaphysical matters.  I believed that Ava also had the traits of an empath, although she was not aware of it herself. Her sensitivity had led her to assume the same depression, anxiety and fear that her mother had suffered from.

Her character number was 4. This meant that Ava was a practical person who had a strong streak of determination in her.  She might have realized for awhile that she needed to sell her home and move on, hence her approaching me for advice about selling her home.  However, she was wrought with so much guilt about losing the home and fear about facing a new future of uncertainties. In spite of these feelings, her repressive 4 character found it difficult for her to give me a more in - depth background of her situation.


Using Tarot To Complete The Story And Provide Advice

I picked 3 cards to affirm my understanding of Ava's mother.  The High Priestess Reversed, 3 of Swords Reversed and Queen of Swords Reversed showed up.  These  were classic cards in Tarot that confirmed that Ava's mother suffered a broken heart from her husband's affair and spent the rest of her days living in bitterness.

I then picked 3 cards to connect Ava with her past and the 5 of Cups Reversed, 6 of Swords Reversed and King of Wands Reversed showed up.  These were interesting picks as I saw the indelible mark that the trauma of her mother's broken marriage and eventual suicide had caused Ava.  Ava suffered a lot of residual resentment, hurt, regret and guilt for her mother's suffering that Ava herself now suffered a low self esteem and tremendous lack of confidence. She had dreams of starting afresh in a new country but had no courage to act upon these dreams.

Her current situation with the house was manifested in the 2 of Swords Reversed and the 8 of Swords Reversed which told  me that she was actually ready to put the past behind her and embrace change.  However she was stuck with the indecision of what to do with the home and where her best options lie because of the associated guilt of giving up her childhood home.

To help provide her with the options to make the right decision I picked the World Reversed to ascertain if Ava should keep her home, rent it out and make best use of her life in Frankfurt. This card clearly indicated that this option would prevent her from getting the closure she needed from her past.

I then picked the Death card to ascertain if she should sell the home, and use the proceeds to relocate to France. This was a clear indicator that she should put that major aspect of her life behind her and look to embracing a new future ahead of her. Selling that home would kickstart that process.

I decided then to finish my reading by picking 2 cards to offer her  generic advice on how to manage her future direction.   The Page of Pentacles and the Star card showed up. These cards advised her to turn her desires into a tangible goal by putting together a viable action plan.  She had so much to do,  She had  to start the administrative process of putting the home up for sale, look for a job in France, find a new home there and the list of "to-do"s while daunting, just had to be systematically acted upon if she wanted to see some light at the end of the tunnel.  Her future was full of hope and positivity, but she needed to act on it now to turn her life around.

Telling The Story In A Compelling Manner

When I read for my clients, I am ultimately putting pieces of the puzzle together to write a compelling story for  them so that they could get a clearer picture  from which they could see beyond what they had originally wanted to see.  Ava's is one such story where she finally came to terms with the fact that her clinging on to her home was her way of keeping her mother in her memory out of guilt.  As a daughter, she felt helpless that she could not be of more help and support to her mother.  However, I told her that "Mum wants you to know that you will bring her much pride and put her spirit at rest if you could move on to build a more productive life for yourself  in another  home that promises to be better and happier."

I was so glad I had let my intuition take the lead and trusted the messages behind the vision that I got.

This is a true account of a reading for my client.  All names and locations have been changed to protect his or her privacy.

About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and a tarot card reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a Tarot consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association

Website: www.sungoddesstarot.com
Email:  Joanna@sungoddesstarot.com
Facebook:  www.facebook.com/SunGoddessTarot
Twitter: www.twitter.com/SunGoddessTarot
Blog: http://sungoddesstarot.blogspot.com

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Tarot Tip Tuesdays - Open And Honest Communication Is Necessary

Whether you are new to Tarot and in the throes of building a connection with your Tarot cards or an advanced Tarot reader diligently honing your Tarot reading skills, I am putting out a Tarot tip a week to help you to consistently make Tarot a part of your everyday life.

So here goes your Tarot Tip for this Tuesday:

I thought this topic would be an appropriate tip for the week because it happened to me just a couple of days ago.  I could kick myself sometimes and this just goes to show that even experienced Tarot readers do sometimes forget.  

My regular clients are very familiar with my reading style of combining Tarot, Numerology and Astrology.  Even new clients who engage me for a reading for the very first time, often are happy with my style of reading. I guess, these modalities are quite common and clients are generally comfortable with these. I would usually preface the reading anyhow by explaining my code of ethics and I would also explain how I would combine these modalities to create depth of advice to support my client's decisions.

So far, this had been happening swimmingly with great success and the readings would invariably involve a 2-way opened communication between the client and myself.  After a reading, I would know as much about my client as he or she would know about me.

However a few days ago, this did not happen as planned.  Yes I did open the reading in the usual way of prefacing it with my code of ethics and my reading style, but I forgot to explain that I added another dimension to the reading by channeling for her before she arrived for the appointment.  I had been doing this quite often in my readings these days as I have been developing my clairvoyant and clairsentient skills lately.

My client was clearly uncomfortable as she did not understand what channeling meant.  In her mind, I was talking to unknown entities in a realm she could not comprehend and she was completely freaked out by that. Part of her discomfort had to do with the fact that she erroneously thought it had violated her religious beliefs.  The "clairs" were big words for her and she told me flatly that she just wanted a simple Tarot reading and had not expected "the works". 

Of course we both left the table quite unhappy after the reading.  I turned the whole situation inside out within my mind all night and came to a conclusion that I should have been even more opened in my communication with her.  I should not have taken for granted that she understood what channeling meant.  I should not have taken for granted that she would be okay with it if I had not asked for her permission to do so before she arrived at our appointment.

Lesson learnt.  An open and honest communication is necessary between reader and querant.  Do not take for granted that he or she understands your reading style.  Always ask for permission to be part of your querant's journey to find a solution for his or her issues.

May your Tarot cards provide you with a full deck of possibilities throughout your day.

About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and a tarot card reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a Tarot consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association

Website: www.sungoddesstarot.com
Email:  Joanna@sungoddesstarot.com
Facebook:  www.facebook.com/SunGoddessTarot
Twitter: www.twitter.com/SunGoddessTarot