Feeling Disengaged And Uninspired
As a professional Tarot reader that operated within the central business district with clients that were mostly mid-level careerists in the finance, technology or creative industries I had often gotten career-related questions. These clients sought guidance to manage their careers particularly when some felt disengaged and uninspired at specific moments. They trusted me to provide them with guidance through my Tarot cards because they knew that as a mid-level careerist in the financial industry myself, I could empathize with their respective situations.
Like my clients, these feelings of disengagement would creep up on me from time to time. And I felt it increasingly this month. I was not sure if it was because it was the year-end period at work when our minds were mostly focused on the family and the year-end festivities. For me, this was compounded by the fact that Dad suffered a stroke suddenly and threw the family into a period of stress and worry. This had put my work in the back seat for awhile as I tended to what mattered most. And when I could finally settle down upon Dad's recovery to scroll down my emails again, I was filled with a sense of dread at the seemingly insurmountable pile of issues waiting for me to tackle when I got back into the office after the New Year.
Light of Earendil Tarot Spread Inspired By The Hobbit
I had the chance to put the spread into practice.
Card 1: Gollum (What shadow am I currently encountering?) - 7 of Cups
Card 2: Frodo (What hidden/unrecognized strength may help me work with this shadow?) -The Devil Reversed
Card 3: Light of Earendil (What illuminates the darkness for me?)- 6 of Cups
Card 4: Gandalf (How can I master my power?) - 4 of Pentacles Reversed
Card 5: Elrond (What counsel will help me confront my current obstacles?) - King of Wands
Card 6: Mirror of Galadriel (What may the immediate future hold?)- The Chariot Reversed
Card 1 - 7 of Cups:
The Seven of Cups was a reflection of my constant habit of dreaming big dreams, some of which would be unrealistic and some were just dreams that I had never had the guts of putting a plan together to turn them into reality. My dreams got bigger when I had to maneuver many daunting changes in the workplace. I would escape into a world of fantasies when the going got tough at work and start working through my career choices built out of ideals. And we all know, ideals alone would be unsustainable if they were not balanced with practicality. The shadow that I am currently encountering was escapism. I really had to be more grounded
This situation corresponded with my Moon Persona card which is the Knight of Cups. The Knight is a highly sensitive dreamer, full of insecurities and craves recognition and attention. As a figment of my shadow the Seven of Cups warned that if I got too caught up in all my wishful thinking without discerning the "do-able" ones with wisdom or without confronting them with a practical plan to turn some of these into reality, they would forever be hidden in the closet as a shadow, wheeled out only to fill the void of mundane and unfulfilling days when I felt disengaged and uninspired.
The 7 of Cups card was a warning that there were indeed choices that I had to make. These were not career choices, as in, what job I should be pursuing next, particularly when the workplace environment got muddier with the usual corporate changes. Rather, the choices should be about i) the clarity of my career goals and ii) if I was unhappy about a situation at work, what I should be doing about it.
Card 2 - The Devil Reversed:
Recognizing that the shadow cast on my career choices were often driven by my insecurities, fear of change and my career ambitions, the Devil reversed showed up as an advice for me to remain emotionally detached. By being detached from the bonds that had strapped me tightly into what I had momentarily considered a career rut, I would free myself to gain more clarity of mind and heart to make the right choices for my career.
Card 3 - 6 of Cups:
The memories from the past from which I drew lessons for the present, were what I needed to throw some light onto my shadow of escapism. I remembered how I callously changed jobs for the sake of money and big titles years ago when I was younger and dumber. When I worked for a local bank without seeing the light of day and having had to manage a very difficult manager fond of micro-managing his staff, I fell very ill and was diagnosed with severe hypertension that needed daily medication. Hello, Joanna, do you remember those dark days?
At the same time, the 6 of Cups was also an advice for me to look back at what I had endured in the last couple of years with the management changes at my current work place. It assured me that whatever trials and other changes that might lay ahead, I would have the strength to overcome them the way I overcame the difficulties these current changes brought. So I need not have to 'escape' just because I was tired of changes and the usual quagmire of corporate politics. I had experienced these before in the last 20 years of work life and my experience had taught me well enough to manage more of these in the years ahead.
Another advice the 6 of cups gave me, was the reminder that I was doing what I loved in my current role. It gave me room to express my creativity. As I has been a marketing professional for almost 20 years, I was very familiar with the work in my current job and should be confident in my skills and experience enough to know that I could create a lot of fulfillment in whatever I put my heart, mind and soul to.
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Card 4 - 4 of Pentacles Reversed:
The 4 of Pentacles reversed suggested that I could do better and allow more room for strategic and creative thinking if I could just learn to let go. I had spent so much time focused on career-building rather than on intrinsic things that could benefit my team and I, for example, further training and skills upgrading, mentoring the team and maybe even not getting so fixated over my turf and trusting others to do a job well without being over-critical of them. Sometimes, others might not be as experienced and skilled in a job, but they might bring new perspectives to it. The 4 of Pentacles reversed asked that I loosen my hold in my need to feel secure and be recognized for my efforts all the time. I could master my power, if I acknowledged that letting go would go a long way to developing myself as a better leader.
Card 5 - King of Wands:
The counsel that could help me confront my obstacles would most appropriately come from my boss. I had to make an effort to articulate my career goals, and be open about what I needed from my boss to help me find fulfillment in the work that I did. I came across situations quite often amongst my Tarot clients when communication between boss and subordinates were not opened and each side was left to second-guess the other, thus creating tensions and conflicts at work when expectations were not met. I believed that the King of Wands beckoned me to step forward boldly and stake a claim on the future of my own career path by getting the necessary support I needed from my boss.
Card 6: The Chariot Reversed:
My immediate future might see me letting go of my worries and insecurities about the changes in the workplace and the usual corporate dynamics. Let's face it. These are decisions made by the powers that be which they have considered as beneficial to the business. I would instead be focusing my energies on what is within my control as far as own work, projects or career growth within the company are concerned. If I felt disengaged or uninspired again within these areas, I should make the effort to evaluate how and what I could do to make necessary changes to help myself and the team. I should not be distracted by everything else that did not quite matter to my own project or career goals. More importantly, I should never allow any changes within the corporate environment to rock my confidence and personal power.
I always advised my clients that if they could change a situation to make it better, than change it. If they could not change a situation to make it better, then change how they think about the situation.
I should really take my own advice.
The Light of Earendil Tarot Spread is reproduced here with the kind permission of Olivia Destrades.
About The Writer:
The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and a tarot card reader by accident. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist. She is currently running a Tarot consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot, which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops. A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association
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