Thursday, 26 June 2014

A Lesson In Letting Go During The New Moon In Cancer

Tomorrow, we celebrate the New Moon in Cancer. It marks a new beginning for me of epic proportions.

The synchronicity of the Universe was just amazing. My friend Martin sent me this photo yesterday that described this New Moon in Cancer so appropriately.  The watery element of the New Moon was like a swelling of emotions from within me.  These emotions had been bubbling just under the surface, waiting to burst through, only to do so when I confronted my past hurts yesterday.   I believed that the Universe had intended to wash me with these waters of my past so that I could come out from the pool cleansed and ready to serve my purpose.  

This New Moon in Cancer was particularly special for me because the Universe devised a wonderful plan to teach me an invaluable lesson about myself. I learnt to let go off aspects of the past that bound me to emotional insecurities, the need to always obtain validation and the fear of the unknown. I was forced to confront such useless energies last night. 

Here was what had happened. 

Caught Up With A Past Filled With Anger And Resentment

Yesterday evening, I parked my car at the building at which I had worked some 7 years ago. I was about to join my husband and my son for a drink to celebrate having crossed mid-week without having to throw a shoe at anyone at the office.   At the lift lobby, I bumped into an ex-boss who had caused me 2 years of immense depression and a lifetime of hypertension issues because I did not agree with his management style. I bristled in anger the minute I saw him and stomped out of the building in tears when memories of all that hurt and disappointment came flooding back in that instant. A tiny voice buzzed menacingly in my head then, attempting to convince me of how bad a marketeer I must have been, or how useless an employee I might have been that caused the rift between him and I.

Grateful For A Present Filled With Abundance

My husband bounded me off into the car to comfort me and promptly turned on the car radio.  When I heard Andrea Boccelli's magical voice, I suddenly remembered the new life I had created after resigning from that job.  Today, I lead a marketing communications team for a company that I truly enjoyed working at everyday. I felt privileged to have bosses and colleagues who inspired me and who accepted and appreciated my skills.  I built  a successful business doing Tarot, Numerology and Astrology readings that allowed me to guide my clients through their issues using my intuitive skills. My family gave me immense love and support. I was on the road towards regaining back my health and fitness. I felt so much abundance.  It was as if, I had finally come home to myself.   

Tapping On My Inner Queen Of Cups

I meditated on the Tarot Card that represented Cancer - the Queen of Cups.  The Queen was emotionally-charged, sometimes she needed to learn to balance heart and head.  She was a dreamer, who had to make special efforts to ensure that she could discern between illusion and reality.  Her highly intuitive nature guided her to navigate difficult situations introspectively.  When I came face to face with past negative energies of anger and resentment, I forced the Queen of Cups in me to  balance my emotions around what was in the now, and what had happened in the past; what energies I deemed as useless so that I could let them go and what lessons I could learn from them; the illusion of my ex-boss' dislike of me and the reality that he did not give a toss what had happened between us then, so many years ago.

I was led by the Universe to put my hand into the bag of seeds of past anger, resentment and sadness. I gave myself permission to be angry for awhile, then sprinkled these seeds of past negative energies onto the ground so that they could be healed by the cleansing earth energy in preparation for my growth.

Planting Seeds Of Joy This New Moon 

If I was not forced to step out of my comfort zone at that point when I could not get along with that ex-boss 7 years ago, I would not have found this life of abundance! When I started to think back about what I had learnt when I was caught in the middle of that career cross-road, I realized those lessons were well-leveraged when I guided my clients who went through similar situations.  I became a better manager, a better friend, a better mentor, a better wife, and a better mum because of what I had been through.  My experience taught me that only I could plant my own seeds of joy, success, fulfillment and abundance.  

I felt immense gratitude for that experience with my ex-boss. I could finally let it all go. And I let it go with love.  

So this New Moon in Cancer was a lesson for me in letting go of what was holding me down and not serving me anymore so that I could birth new strength and courage to create a better life, gain new knowledge and perspectives, and serve my purpose that was meant to be.  

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About The Writer:

The writer of this blog post is a marketeer by trade, and an intuitive reader by accident who deploys the combined modalities of a Tarot, Numerology and Astrology overlaid with her Clairvoyant and Clairsentient skills to deliver her readings with authenticity. She was awarded a Certified Professional Tarot Reader qualification from the Tarot Certification Board of America (TCBA) and is also a certified numerologist.  She is currently running a consultancy based in Singapore called Sun Goddess Tarot,  which provides confidential intuitive readings combining the metaphysical disciplines of Tarot, Numerology and Astrology via face to face and emails as well as readings at corporate and private events and workshops.  A member of the American Tarot Association (ATA) and the Tarot Association of the British Isles (TABI), she is also a reader for the Free Tarot Network and mentors Tarot protégés on behalf of the American Tarot Association


Queen Of Cups From The Rosetta Tarot Deck By M.M. Meleen

Photo Credit: Martin Hook


  1. Hi Joanna. Thank you for sharing this story. How often we only see in hindsight the positive consequences of a "terrible" event.
    I love the depiction of the queen how she gazes at her own reflection.

    1. Thanks for visiting my blog. Yes, it was so hard for me to come face to face with it, but it needed to happen:) xxJo